quick creative writing piece

I feel this incredible surge of emotion – a need to drive forward, to push myself in every way possible. I want to embrace that which might destroy me, to push the boundaries of human existence and break through my own human chains. I want to build and keep building, to feel what everyone who achieves knows: the continuous mastering of the self and the renewal of the spirit. This renewal is a constant, it can have a mechanical basis and consist of improvement through technique, or it can be the steady rhythm and breathing after the fall. The fall which threatens to shatter everything, the fall which diminishes the self as too human and too breakable, as expendable. And yet, to conquer the fall, to rise when its pull is stronger than the sun’s power over the earth tastes almost as sweet as accomplishment itself. The hunger for more, the struggle against self-perceived imperfection, and the rise above that imperfection are manifest only in those who are willing to challenge themselves .They challenge what they have been told they are, and what they have told themselves they are. They challenge satisfaction and perform against themselves, sometimes to the death. This desire should be thought of as dangerous, but it is the ultimate danger – few will know it, and many will ignore it because it is more difficult than leading a simple life, a life free of sacrifice, self-creation, and self-loathing. Those who learn how to master the self, who drive forward in the face of total destruction, will know a pleasure far greater than others can even begin to comprehend.

- Nina Jankovic